| Sunday, August 21, 2005 |
| home, or something like it |
Well, been back in Iowa for about 24h now, and it's very happy-making. Last night about 1 am I met my first neighbor, Chuck, who thought that my whiteboard nametag of Alexander Supertramp, Queen of France was "fly" and was compelled to introduce himself. He is veryverytall, and invited me to "case the town" with him and his friends. Probably should have said yes, but he had numerous well-dressed strangers with him, and I was all messy and smelly from moving in and setting up throughout the day, so I didn't. Made up some excuse about going out with my friends later, which was a wholly ridiculous thing to say at 1 am, but that's what I was able to come up with.
The last month I was in Wheeling, I was giving counseling another go, this time with someone who'd already gotten his graduate studies done [at the UI, no less]. It went much better, I'm happy to report, and I even noticed a slight improvement in my sleeping habits while I was seeing him. He gave me the name of a place in IC he wants me to look into now that I'm back, but more interesting was his last bit of advice--that I get a boyfriend [luckily he didn't ask why I broke out laughing when he made the suggestion]. Ironic, too, given that one of the problems we discussed was my belief in the impossibility of just that.
So I'm here, about to give this whole dealy another go. Conversation with my parents the past few days have been lightly sprinkled with requests that I reassure them that I'm going to do better this semester. I was largely noncommittal to them, but I sincerely hope that I do. Another of the things I talked about with Dan was that it's really not about them, never was [shock!]. Sure, he's too judgmental and she simplifies too much, but I really have to stop carrying that around with me at some point. Not being inundated with his temper tantrums and her constant buzz will be a start, as it was each of the two other times I've come here after a summer with them, but it's about time I start doing things for myself. So the first steps in this "trying new things" idea is to call up the new counseling place tomorrow, and making a note to start working earlier at not having to go back to Wheeling for any more than a few weeks at a time. |
posted by La Malinche @ 3:31 PM   |
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